Scrambling down my ladder feet in tune of Marky Mark's Good Vibrations that just came on my speaker, I reach for the remote and as I rewind the song to restart it, my head just nods in sheer satisfaction and I cannot contain myself from the energy and emotion as I pump up the volume. As a soap opera stare comes over me and a smile that draws from deep within, giggling as I board this magic carpet ride for in a sheer moment it takes me back to days of old and my cd I still have, Jock Jams. My Daughter who is almost thirteen has this on her phone as well as it is a favorite in both our playlists. The feeling is electric and gets my Soul to moving not just in past time but in present day time in the here and now as if declaring unto this dusty living room I am cleaning to take note that I am at large and in charge of this moment, my moment; feeling that vibration that is oh so good free to be me. One of the things that I truly desire as part of my Legacy is my desire for living in the moment and making those moments matter to continue on. Perhaps it is my Destiny as the series of events occuring shaping my life as a young high school girl taking care of her Mother who was extremely ill and society was not quite ready to embrace her disease; if it truly ever will be. I learned how important the mood or tone of our Home (heart) was as it could be downtrodden or depressing at times so I learned the power of celebrating the here and now. Flash forward to me in my late thirties and my second child is terminal given perhaps eight weeks to live, but daily it was uncertain if today would be her day to go....liken as to when you stop and truly appreciate this moment, your moment, none of ours are certain; we just simply take for grandit it will be. Furthermore I believe this is what leads us to miss the ordinary, perhaps by chance, coincidence moments that were laced with all the depth our souls search for.
When I first started blogging I titled this as I did for this very reason. Life is full of Wonder and Wonderments as George Strait sings I saw God today, this is my variation, my call to take hold of the here and now to unleash your passion of your dreams within your heart; writing out into the unknown as my messages in a bottle to drift to the shores and into the hands in hopes to inspire and move those who read my words. As I have written in past blogs, the good, the bad and the ugly moments are quintessential realizing that perhaps only in the looking back will those hard times be appreciated for without them you would not be where they escorted you. Realizing you were ushered here only because of those moments. I read something the other day that goes along perfectly,
"If you are only looking for God in the spectacular, you'll miss Him in the ordinary." Ordinary is not an accepted description in my vocabuary describing any element of my life... or -perhaps I am referring to only part of it's definiton because as defined as an adjective part is as I speak of to be bland or common however, it goes on to define it as inferior in quality, deficient. So go back and read that quote and replace it with deficient in quality and it truly ressonates. It is when I stop to appreciate and drink in the here and now allowing it to permeate my being I am transformed. In a day in which we find ourselves unable to relish in these moments of Halloween the real meaning of the eve of all Saints Day on November first and All Souls day on November second which is a holy day of obligation for us Catholics and very special to anyone who has lost someone dear to them; because, immediately your attention is taken to Christmas being decked around the stores it is as if Society has missed the dearest meaning of life; the here and now. Right now. As in playing my Daughter in tennis I have learned that if I concentrate on my hitting the ball and following through all the way, then after my follow through do I move to prepare for the rallied return of the ball I will be ever more effective. I believe with every fiber of my being we are where we are by design and our passion and dreams are what fuels the magic to make that carpet take flight for us to ride.
I find myself exstatic to go see Ferdinand the movie as I have always adored the story of him. I have enjoyed listening to Nick Jonas singing the song Home to this soundtrack. When I think of Home I think of homebase as I stayed up late watching the World Series the other night wrapped up in the intoxicating enthrallment of watching not only the players run to it but their team mates in cheering them on and enjoying that moment celebrating. I too felt as if I had crossed that base. I think of the Home team football game as I was cheering last night for my Daughter to cheer for her boys in school's football team celebrating those moments to hallmark plays (and phenomenal cheerleaders of course). Above all when I think of Home, it is always undeniably my Heart and where life was truly lived. The saying could never be more bona fide, unquestionable or factual; Home is where the Heart is. Perhaps I would still be this Celebrating Sensation of Moments and following your Dreams nonetheless, however, I am solid and fortified after building my life with the added given variables that seasoned me.
Ferdinand shows us that just because he was a Bull, he did not have to act as one,moreover, he inspired us all by merely following his heart. We are made to be uniquely wholeheartedly who we are regardless of anything external. Often times when I feel out of place because I am driven to follow my passion in my heart I chuckle and feel so invariably satisfied as I picture big ole Ferdinand happy as can be sitting under the tree smelling his beloved flowers. I love the movie The Blindside when Sandra Bullock realized how Micheal Oar was too Ferdinand (we all are in fact) and channeled his passion, leading his heart by him playing football like what his dream in his heart was, his family. May we all live in such a way that as these examples showed great determination to be who they truly were inside to the very depths of their Soul; henceforth making the vibrations in their lives good and inspiring those around them as well. The Wonderment of Life is being able to feel the good vibrations where there were none. Often times I am grabbing my jumper cables in the ordinary times to crank it up being charged from a deeper force that unleashes my Heart with Passion liken to a lamp that merely is a pretty decorative piece until it is turned on in the dark. May we all light up our worlds this weekend finding delight and satisfaction in clicking our ruby red slipper heels together and whisper there is no place like home... our hearts.
The picture I chose at the top is special and relevant to this blog because it was in the midst of a cheer game my Daughter yells out from the field to me in the stands and unctions for me to go take a picture of the sky. I missed that moment at first, I chuckled to those around me not getting what the fuss was about but when I got to where she beckoned for me to stand and take the picture I beheld the beauty not just of that sky but of her heart. Do not miss your moment of the here and now regardless where it finds you as her in the midst of cheering her heart was searching for so much more in her moment. She yearned to be blown away or inspired to feel good vibrations. The call to look deeper for more than a moment; well done my child, alas she succeeded.
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