TIDAL WAVE

Sitting after a busy social morning, now sipping on my morning coffee watching the random showers of rain, enthralled with the drops watching them dance and fall some bouncing others seem to just disappear, however their movement is entrancing, appreciating the cooler air this rain is ushering in. Allowing myself to get lost in my thoughts, identifying with my emotions and desires; introducing and allowing them to acquaint with my Soul and Heart as I embrace and delve deeper to the desires and emotions meaning; discarding what is the fleeting and verifying the validity before preparing to conquer. The word that occurred to me last night as I sat up late working on my New Year's Resolutions was Contentment. I was so surprised to read the  synonym was happiness. Challenging myself to examine in order to testify to my truest self admitting under oath where did I lack Contentment and Happiness? Furthermore, would the desire or emotion bring such satisfaction? 

Often times we find ourselves spinning our wheels busying ourselves with so many things ultimately trying to deafen the dreams because we feel we are not equipped to obtain, Moreover, it tends to turn to chaos and confusion. What troubles me is I often times do not realize it until I stop to observe my surroundings or hollow out the clutter of this world and soothe myself in the cocoon of my own Heart. For example, I drive myself batty with projects around my Home because of my own attention deficiency I will start something with all the gusto needed with more to still give but mid way I become overwhelmed, bewildered and I leave what is truly a mess in order to start a brand new fresh project that I feel I again have all that I need to check off that list. Before I know it, I have completely and entirely caused disarray in my Home. Ironically enough, I do not realize the issue until after I have mayhem from front door to back door and everywhere in between! 

As I was being deposed by my own questions, it was as if the truth was unveiled instantly. Confusion is our worst enemy in capturing our Dreams. Defined will truly blow your mind if you simmer on each meaning. disorder; upheaval; tumult; chaos:
lack of clearness or distinctness:
perplexity; bewilderment:
embarrassment or abashment: a disturbed mental state; disorientation. The part that sent me squealing with delight is a sentence used in this very definition that brought this all together for me, it said "the army retreated in confusion." My best friend is notorious by everyone who knows her by saying "retreat is NOT an option" but confusion paralyzes, it weakens, it is the destroyer to the depths of our Core. 

Last night as I was writing down my Resolutions, I admit I was overwhelmed with confusion and doubt but oddly enough this song has been my newest musical obsession and anyone that knows me knows my passion for music. When I became overwhelmed with the confusion last night I played this new song that I love over and over again and I danced around my house until it was banished certain I will obtain.  When I watched the video today it blew my mind I had no idea they were on a Mission of a Dream in this song but I knew he was determined to have this song played I lit up like an inferno!  I tell you what This IS The Wonderment of Life; so get after what burns in your bones and make 2017 the year all the previous were jealous ...notice in the video everyone was spellbound by him, joining; as he pursued his Dream... Happiest of New Years I delight as I envision the each of you as the end of this video. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5qWnG5RQTk